Around the new year, I arrived at a theme for 2011: No Excuses.
I'd been reading people's New Year's Resolution posts, and started to get really inspired to do some of the things I'd been putting off. One post in particular, which I can't find now, had some concrete steps to follow for achieving success that I reworded to suit me:
SUCCESS
- No Excuses
- Set Goals
- Schedule time to work on goals
I felt like I had a rocket ship to success. I set a handful of craft blog goals, and I set aside all my free time for working on them.
The last couple of years I'd gotten used to having real, non-crafty things get in the way of all my big ideas. But all of those projects are finished. Now when a reason for putting things off popped into my head, I didn't have to reason it away or fight against it, I just had the success coach in my head say, "No excuses!" and I'd happily get to work.
I was motivated and excited. I was getting a lot of behind-the-scenes work done, and I was posting more than ever. But it's all come to a screeching halt lately because I totally burned myself out on my craft blog.
I was imaging my life in two parts: at work and not at work. I imagined that my not at work life could be filled to the brim with, well, more work ... fun, crafty, and usually fulfilling work, but work nonetheless. Well, that's pretty ridiculous.
I've learned that I should only set one craft goal at a time. I've learned that I can't (try to) post every day of the week AND post a peepshow post on Saturday. I've learned that there is such a thing as *too much* of a good thing.
I've learned that I have limits. There are only so many hours in the day. There is only so much enthusiasm you can substitute for relaxation. There is only so much that I can accomplish with the resources at my disposal.
I've also learned that limits aren't the same as excuses. I am not superhuman.
I feel a little deflated. A little disappointed. A little disoriented.
I'm still crafting every day. I don't want to tempt fate by saying this, but I don't think I could ever tire of making things. But I haven't felt much like blogging about it.
I don't have a big inspirational ending or a grand plan to share with you for getting back on track with the blog. I've been purposely trying to not-think about what I want to do to fix things. I'm letting my unconscious sort things out. I think this blog post is part of that process.